Dear daisy,
I know what you're going through...I was raped by my father at 12 and he did not go to jail out get charged for anything because he is a pastor. It is something no one should have to go through. I have also tried to commit suicide several times. It is not worth it! The people in the town I live in call me a whore a lot. But there are some people on my side and I'm on yours! I won't go into detail of my story because it's too much to tell because it was continuous for 2 years straight! I still struggle with this today but just remember to keep your head up and remember you were the victim! 
With all my prayers,
Mallorie